Electricity in the Air

Whew, have you ever turned on the TV and felt like God was talking directly to you ? I've been having difficult time lately. I'm struggling with a few things. One of them is that people keep telling me that I ought to be teaching. I'm reluctant to try. Part of me just feels like that's another way of saying, hey, I'm threatened by having you in my class - go start your own. I don't think anyone would come, frankly.

Another thing is that I'm feeling a crushing sense of emptiness and loss. I won't explain why but it's messing with my head and it's painful. It does, however, give me a new appreciation for God's accusations in Jeremiah when he says, you don't miss me -you don't even notice that I'm not there ! I feel that way about some of the people in my life.

Back to the TV, though - I made up my mind earlier to let go of some of the things that are making me unhappy and to just accept things as they are - accept them as what God wants for my life. I mean, I would not be here in this place, at this point if he hadn't ordained it. Sometimes, I have a hard time not complaining that it's not fair. I feel so poor sometimes - oh not in material things. But I don't want to explain, it would sound like whining.

The point is that I was flipping through the channels and came across a PBS station playing one of my favorite groups - Celtic Woman. It was a brand new, yet-to-be released show. I happened to catch it right at the beginning. The names and words of the songs kind of electrified me. They started with a song called THE CALL and moved into FIELDS OF GOLD (Barley) and WHEN YOU BELIEVE (what miracles you can achieve). There was a song called the Coast of Galicia (Galatians anyone ? Actually it's a place in Spain but it reminded ME of Galatians) and then THE NEW GROUND (Isle of Hope).

If the hairs are not standing up on the back of your neck, it's only because you haven't been in my head for the last couple of weeks. I heard - you're being called, come with me to fields of barley (gold), there can be miracles when you believe, remember Galatians - there is new ground and new hope.

Galatians is my favorite bible book. The (barley) fields of gold imagery has a special meaning to me. I've been wearing a bracelet that says, "Miracles Happen" for quite some time now so that always catches my attention. Either I have a great imagination or God really was talking to me.